I wake up in cold sweats, almost every night. Alone, just my ceiling fan, my room, the world and me.
The quiet is different at 3 am.
The shadows suffocating. Curling around my neck. Reminding me I am alone.
There’s a brief panic in these early hours “I’m alone I’m alone I’m alone.”
Nothing quite like
Cold sweats in bed, I feel sweat like a teardrop run down my thigh
The ceiling fan reminds me that time moves on. I wish this moment would. I crush my eyes and hope to not see the ghosts playing in my bedroom.
I close my eyes until I fall asleep again. Panic subsided, breathing steady. Cold sweats have passed.