stress
eats away at my chest
a weight
that makes my lungs deflate
a worry
the feeling of always being in a hurry
stress,
a weight in my chest.
stress
eats away at my chest
a weight
that makes my lungs deflate
a worry
the feeling of always being in a hurry
stress,
a weight in my chest.
I look out the window and see that wall we used to climb over to visit the neighbor’s kids.
Looking up, I can almost imagine old friends sitting atop it, shouting at us across the yard to come join them.
Walking out to the backyard, I feel the glow of sunshine and nostalgia mix on my skins.
I dip my fingers into the pool and I am immersed in memories.
The pool fights and the time my tears mixed in the water as I cried over some childhood tragedy.
It’s been a while since I’ve swum in the deep end. I can’t remember the last time I’ve dipped more than a few limbs into the water. It must be months now, maybe even years.
I look to the back fence of the yard, to the empy area where a wooden playground used to stand – taken down a few years ago as the kids grew up and the wood grew moldy.
The yellow sunshine still dances the same way amongst the clouds, reflected in the darkening patches of grass.
The nature and temperament around me are the same as seemingly thousands of summer’s past.
At least that has stayed the same.
honeybee
won’t you come find you way to me
fly
up high and down low, until you’re close.
honeybee
don’t stray to far from me.
I can’t seem to figure out what I want anymore.
maybe it’s because I’m too caught up in trying to figure you out –
what do you want? who do you want?
maybe the simple fact is that I’m not it.
but I hope in vain
that’s not
true.
silent moments pass slower
caught in the web of reflection
thoughts thicken the air
time stretches as I spend it looking back an reflecting
but I’m not complaining.
it give me more time to think about what went wrong with you and I.
blissful weekends
a brief pause in the week
a deep breath
a chance to live
a little,
during normal life
a much-need respite
to reconnect
the blissful peace of the weekend
before it all starts again.
What is love but a sentiment that seems to evade most of humanity?
Intertwined in the basis of all our lives, it is also something we happen to leave out the most. It is invisible in our most obvious actions – but underlying in our intentions.
I should have liked to fall in love, had I believed myself capable of such depth and vulnerability.
But the strongest hearts are the hardest to break through (at least that is what I tell myself). Perhaps, instead, it is my weakness that forces me to safeguard myself – for fear that I might break.
Either way, a great emotion pains me to think, to feel, to be (or not to be) who I am.
I am undecided in emotion and thought, undecided in feeling and action, undecided in love and lost.
What flows from me, I can only hope one day that someone will see, and decipher the hieroglyphs protecting the Rosetta Stone of my heart.
We are all capable of beauty and power, love and lust, but only few choose to pursue it. Maybe that is why there are the few, the lucky ones, that find true love.